I'm 42 years old and I'm having a mid-life crisis.
No, I'm not chasing young girls or buying fast cars. I'm not going back to school or changing careers or in anyway wishing I could reinvent myself. I'm happy, generally speaking. I love my wife. I get to do what I love for a living which is both a blessing and a curse. I have great friends and many interesting acquaintances and I feel as though I am well regarded. I have enough money, not that I wouldn't want more, an adequate home and a nice car. So what's the crisis?
Well, it seems that the relative normalcy of my life adds up to an unpleasant reality - I am irrelevant. Politically, socially, financially, environmentally, psychologically, I exist in the great gray middle of things. I'm a white, protestant, non-religious, sane, average sized male. Statistically, I'm a bowl of shredded wheat - Good for you but uninspiring. Oh, I'm not alone. I see me everywhere. It's hard to image so many of us can be so ignored but it seems we are. So how did I get here? How do I change my circumstance? How do I reverse my disconnection from the world in which I live?
I think I know the answer. I must connect with others, others who feel the same disaffection for the world. This will prove difficult for me because you see I don’t like people. Don’t misunderstand me – There are many persons I like and love, but people are an annoying, irritating mass that drive me nuts. But perhaps it is the mass with whom I must learn to live and to connect with in order to regain my relevance in the world.
I don’t know for certain but that is what I hope to find out as I explore my life here on these pages. I hope you find it interesting or instructive or maybe entertaining. Mostly I hope you find it relevant.
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Most anyone who knows me has heard me say "I was born 40 and I'll die 40". Well now I'm 42 so it seems like a good time to record some of what I've learned and experienced. I don't believe I have any answers but questions are often more instructive - The more I know, the less I know. I'm a fan of thought and language and I hope that both are well used herein.
3 comments:
I searched the card section at CVS for a Happy First Blog card but
didn't find one.
You are relevant to other possibly interesting but ultimately irrelevant people, who have high regard for, and good times availing themselves of, your talent and wit.
If the relevancy lasts for a moment, an evening, years, isn't that what life's made of?
Excellent point! Thanks for reading.
Wow, other than your comment about not liking people (I guess I generally just accept them as they are), I share a lot of your feelings. Maybe Kristin is right and 50 will yield the here-to-for hidden answers...but, buddy, you have a much longer wait than I! So here's hoping for a sooner rather than later epiphany!
Karen
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